I dont really know how I really feel as its a lot of jumbled feelings.
Its like a knot that Im trying to untie.
I know one things for sure and thats that i miss you.
I hate all of this. All of the hurt over seriously nothing. I cant put all the blame on you, though. Even still, i feel like its your fault.
I couldn’t shake the feeling that you really didnt love me the way you said you did.
I really realized that when you were able to tell me that you love me but couldnt see me in person to talk.
I do understand why, as I am not ready to see you either.
Inside im a little glad you said no.
The way you acted (from my point of view) sums up to bascially what i did to you way back then.
Say your mine but not admit it to others.
Why you had such a problem really escapes me.
I have always known that you are secretive and mysterious..
You dont like people to be in your actual life.
Almost as if you dont want people to know what youre doing.
Its like you put on this false persona and parade a different one around in the crowd that fits.
Where I come in is at the end of the night when you get lonely, you knew that i was there.
I have always been there and i was like a reasource to you.
From my point of view i could tell that you werent interested in me.
Our relationship was incomplete and i wasnt having it anymore.
The things ive left behind with this will hurt for years to come.
Ill miss you.
I mean that. Ill miss YOU.
Everything about you.
I learned to love who you are a while ago.
Simple things remind me of you.
I go through my day with you on my mind so often. If youve thought about me during this time, i was probably thinking about you too.
I have a lot of anger towards you that i need to let go of. I figure that part comes in time and forgivness.
All and all our relationship has been fickle.
You are fickle.
Sorry for gramitical and spelling errors.
If you really care that much you can lick my nuts